4th December

It seems that I arrived ages ago, but it’s actually only been a few days… I spent today down at the cottage trying to get things sorted… it’s now clean and ready inside for the removal men to arrive. Hopefully that’ll be tonight, but it’s late already so I’m thinking tomorrow is probably more likely.

I still haven’t been able to get the phone and internet lines connected… I should have known everything couldn’t possibly go smoothly…

Not much else really to report… I’m kind of at some stage in between my new home and the old one… but not quite homeless, and not quite on holiday… It’s a little unsettling, a bit like waiting at the platform for the train to arrive… but I know I’ll soon be settled… and I’ll no longer call it ‘the Cottage’ instead it’ll be plain and simply ‘home’!

As I knelt today lighting a fire, I felt very welcome there, like it would soon be my home… I would soon have my photos and stuff all over the place, and Mr Tom would soon be snuggled up in on a rug in front of the roaring fire… I liked that feeling… I have a strong connection to the cottage; I guess I always have… And now I feel like my life gone past has been leading me to this point… it feels so right, and that gives me comfort.

I always have very strong ‘gut feelings’ about things, and I tend to trust those instincts… I’d like to think that if I’d made the biggest mistake of my life, I’d know it… and today, deep down in my gut I felt content and confident… so I’m thinking that’s a pretty good sign!

With my internet not yet set up, I’m only able to get online at my brothers house… it’s great that I can still get online, but his wireless has gone haywire, so I’m only on once a day (he and 4 kids share the PC)…

I hope you’re all keeping well, and will catch up with you all soon… x

The bad weather has put a slight delay on delivery of my stuff... but I'm not really all that surprised considering how rough the weather has been here this weekend.

The weekend has flown past, and all my good intentions have also flown by.... (oops!). I was planning to have done some cleaning and painting already, but have instead been taking it easy.... (slapped wrists, I know). I did BUY the paint though, so have everything I need to get started... I just need the motivation now.

I went and had a good look round the cottage... it looks OK, needs a bit more work than I'd imagined (and more than I'd been told), but even so, it's still OK to move in, and nothing is urgent.... it can all be done in time...

Today we went to the Bazaar in town, and it was strange to walk round thinking that this is my home now... I felt completely unconnected from the whole thing... I knew nobody outside my family, and felt completely overwhelmed that I'm here for good... Maybe the problem is that I'm going away on holidays now soon, so I'm not here permanently, and I'm not even living down in the cottage yet... I'm sure it'll sink in after spending a week there, just myself and Mr Tom...